Actually i have so much things in my mind that i wanted to shout them out loud...its just that i choose to not to...these few weeks,it has been up and down...and so does love...for the moment when im writing this particular piece,at the very specific time...love is something that is very bothersome...it used to be something that is very exciting and interesting...somehow someway,now it has lost its very own charm and not to mention direction...i know that i am not a very good person to be with...i forgot bithdates, anniversaries and many other important things...but i have never forget the persons i love...i may seem like a person whom is full with myself...the truth is im not...im the kind that is very content when people are there around me...content when laughter echoes across the air...but now...at this very moment...being alone is like breathing a fresh air in the middle of a metropolitan..it feels very relief be around with my own thoughts and feelings...really hope that gomol will understand this...i really need to explain it to u...but everytime i do,ur emotion jumps up and down frantically without even digesting the true words that im gonna say...it bores me so much...i love my companions..no matter guys or girls..bur u dont seem to understand..ive drawn the line between friends and lovers...still,u dont seem to understand it either..it makes me sick...sick to my stomach...so sick that i need to be with my own thoughts...y cant u understand???y cant u accept??the way i see it,u cant accept me for the way i am...now im doing u a favor...i do the same thing to you...same thing how u cant accept me totally...and u blame me for all of that...it is very unfair...sometimes,i wonder is this true differences between us really compliment our relationship??sometimes its not...like now...like always..may be we need to find our own solution...i know that u may be reading this anyway..but this is better than saying it straight to your face...coz ur fragile individualistic cannot handle the aggressive mine...sorry..just sorry....
~gemil~
